I'm Just In The Next Room

You're dealing with problems, our problems, by yourself. You've always been stronger than me. You just never realize it, because I pretend to be so strong. I put up a facade of strength, to try and shield you. But you have the real strength.

Please don't cry, when I can't wipe your tears.

Please be strong, I'm just in the next room.

I will kill, for you.

You only need to nod when I ask.

The bitches. I hate them. I hate them. They've made part of our lives miserable. When I'm with you, I love living, I love life. But they make every moment without you, a living hell. I do not know what I would do without you.

I love you Gillian, I am here for you.

Please be strong. I'm coming soon.

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