dead of the night

i lay there
an arm under my head
as i stared
at the white-washed walls

my lips turned down
eyes felt their strain
as shadows flickered
overhead
and through

lizards gecko'ed
on the ceiling
i watched
provoking rage
staring straight

i'll be waiting
in circles
confusion is old

never really know
what you really are
never want to know
what you really are

guilt crossed
doubt shimmered
love hammered
regret tinkered
while
sadness prevailed


red satin
it berated me
shouted that it meant nothing
mocking with
its significance

wondering now
if instincts were right
if i should hide
so
that we can be




lost in the mire,
-Jacqueline

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